January 2009
50 posts
NYE
I’m in my best dress and sitting on the couch as my family watches the Dark Knight on the eve of a new year. Just got home from a 30 minute car ride in fog - You couldn’t see 10 feet in front of you. Symbolic much? You’ll never know what will be there when the fog clears. Okay, my mom is soooo anal right now. Damn, are you gonna be a bitch the whole year?! Whatever I don’t...
Happy New Year
December 2008
18 posts
Desire.
The day before Christmas break, I lost my camera. I don’t know how, because I know exactly where I had it before I went home, and I know it’s not at home, so … I don’t know. Recently, I’ve been looking to replace it before my parents notice it is gone. I was planning to get the same model, like before, just so they wouldn’t know I broke my old one. I’ve...
100 Freight Cars on my Train (Of Thought) - I
1. I go to great lengths to get the right word to articulate myself in blogs. 2. I need a haircut 3. possibly to signify a New Me? 4. Who am I kidding? 5. I need to think of a New Year’s Resolution. 6. 4 minutes until Christmas is over. 7. My cousin hates all things Mainstream. 8. I hate your self-centered mannerisms right about now. 9. Maybe my New Year’s Resolution should be...
A lesser world
This Christmas has been full of emptiness, and that is a sad paradox if there ever was one. Seeing that we have not lost anyone but instead, gained a few family members since last Christmas, you’d think this house would seem teeeeeming with people. Truth is, this is the most desolate Christmas I’ve had since I can last remember. For some reason, it felt like there was so much empty...
I'm a complete mess
Packing requires much digging up of things, and I seem to have accidently dug up my past.
Deteriorating at the speed of light.
fucking fail!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK YOU!
Maybe kiss and don't tell, its the rule around...
I honestly feel bad for the guy.
It’s crazy how careless I am. In a way it feels good, I guess it’s the cool breeze before the $h!t hits the fan. I need to go brush my teeth. I’m not going to get 8 hours of sleep. I’ll probably be cranky tomorrow. Fuck! Love life. So today I was in PacSun with my mom and my sister Brittany, who wanted some jeans. They were 2 for $55. So,...
It's gonna be a cold winter,
I am so going to start wearing those floppy summer hats when Summer 09 comes around. In fact, I am getting almost too giddy right now just thinking about it. It’s quite a strange Christmas this year. Doesn’t seem as festive. But what Christmas of mine isn’t eccentric, anyway? Amongst the Californians, Christmas is never the picturesque snowman building hot chocolate drinking...
This is our decision, to live fast and die young.
Take it slow. All I need is C’s and I’m ggggood to go. I hate how my parents keep me in the dark about their financial status. It worries me. I’m actually losing sleep over it. Anyway, today was easy. One more rushed, semi stressful week, but only as stressful as it has to be— then we’re through! Break til next year!
We’ve got the vision, now let’s...
“That’s life. If nothing else, its life. It’s real, and sometimes it...”
– Garden State
the rain fell hard on the roofs that day
Maybe I’m making the same mistake twice by assuming, but the evidence seems pretty absolute to me. I really can’t grasp this situation.
ICBUDK. Of all the people. ICBUC. IDGI. IJDGI. It’s so absurd to think someone could have that sort of mindset. Anyhow, I’m thankful for my nonexistent love life and for the fact that my brain comprehends more than particular others. Yeah,...
IDK+IDC= The ultimate state of mind.
Paper Towns is proving to be the best novel yet by John Green. His other books have disappointed me and I think part of the reason is that they were overhyped by the many online nerdfighters. Hank and John, they were wise, building a large fanbase from the start and pulling many popular Youtubers in.
Anyway, I find myself more self-involved than ever. I feel like shutting the outside world out...
Walked to a town that all of us burn
As you read the following sentence, use a satirical head voice: I find myself thinking rather virtuous thoughts these days. This may seem morbid, but I contemplated suicide just this morning. Hold your horses, stranger, I am not going into a kamikaze craze nor am I tired of life. Oh, quite the opposite, life is too beautiful, and for that reason I would never really kill myself. But my curiosity,...
I'm sorry but I'm just thinking of the right words...
The best things in life are _______. Everyone completes this sentence differently. The best things in life are free? Sweet? Stolen? Pink? The best things in life are pink.
All joking aside, I believe the best things in life are fleeting. They come and go. This is why God, or whoever the fuck is up there, made life this way. I can’t wait to meet death. Okay, just kidding, I take that back. I...
I'm feeling very proseful right now
But also very tired, sore, sick.
The tiredness wins over because I won’t be able to sleep in for another 9 days.
Something beautiful
“What if I only wanted her for her body? What if I only wanted to greet her in the morning with my lips and tell her good night the same way? What if I only wanted wanted to hold her hand as tightly as possible, have her grip in my own and wrap her in my arms. Touch her every corner and curve and tease her until she touched me back. What if I only wanted her eyes to pierce deeply into my...
December 3, 2008 - I begin to recoil.
You act like it’s an automatic license to call me baby. Except, it’s not. How do I articulate? I enjoy the comfort of having you there. Sometimes. I don’t enjoy the constant check ups, the fragile ego, or the fact that you are still inexperienced, and not in the gutter sense, just the young, never-had-a-first-kiss sense, the haven’t-been-to-a-dance-since-8th-grade type...
Motivated, and yet, not.
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Lists motivate me.
Lately I’ve been really inspired by fashion. Have you ever been truly happy with your wardrobe? Like you’re not missing ANYTHING? I...