August 2009
1 post
June 2009
19 posts
Disappointment is the dominant emotion. Disappointed in you for not understanding me as much as I would like you to. And disappointed in myself, for not knowing what to do. Because I feel like shit when we’re not okay and I feel like shit when I pretend like we are. I’ve come to the conclusion that my happiness disperses without you.
The conflict is within me. I guess. I guess...
I’m growing up. I can feel it and the world is well aware and ever changing as well. I feel like … more things are possible now.
Hi. I hate to admit this but
I am only completely happy with you. I say that with utmost sincerity. I used to think it sucks when your mood is completely dependent on another person. Some would call it foolish. But it is so fantastic to have my mood depend on you because really, you never let me down. Ever. And you are the ultimate remedy to all my problems. It is like I am at a terrible, bloody...
I look in the mirror at myself, graduation gown&cap clad. Tears start streaming down my face. The hardest part here is closing the chapter. How can I ever repay and thank my parents for all they have done to get me this far? How will I be able to do everything on my own, independently next year? Some of us proclaim ourselves “independent” but really, we would be nothing without our...
My new favorite quote:
“Every oak tree started out as a couple of nuts who decided to stand their ground.”
Woke up and had a family outing to Best Buy. Bought a secret! And mom told me she ordered my Graduation present already =) Came home. ANGEL I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU’RE GETTING A CAR! Happy surprises. Went to Jonathan’s house and listened to Charley and Kenneth cuss at each other during the basketball game on TV. The highlight of my day, however, was Star Trek! It was the best epic...
Please don't forget me, I'm going away.
Yesterday was the last day of school. Knocked out at JH’s place for a bit and then people went to watch movies, dance, or ice skate. Suddenly, I hated San Jose. I hated the routinelyness and repetitiveness of it all. So instead, we embarked upon an adventure, following a road until the end. Ended up in the mountains! Babe, this may all seem boring/a waste of gas to you, but this is what I...
nkth:
What the world needs, is some honesty..
and less fake-bitchassness.
Babe speaks the truth!
The word of the day is espy: To catch sight of. The first time I espied you, I fell in love.
I have been exhausted for some reason! Not enough sleep, I guess. Yesterday I turned in my choir final and outside listening early (pats self on back) and wrote, filmed AND edited the biology video over a span of 10 hours. Today I felt like death when I woke up. But I think our video was the best one =) I...
“So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half-asleep, even...”
– Tuesdays With Morrie (via littlemiss)
Baby’s favorite book.
The word of the day is cosset, an adjective that means to pamper. I feel cosseted when you walk me to the door to scare away the roaches! I am dangerously sunburnt and drained from today. So, there are 4 days left of school for me, and I have 4 things left on my list of High School Work:
1. AP Biology Video Project (Due Wednesday) 2. Music Papers (Due Wednesday) 3. Math Presentation (Due Thursday)...
This would make for a cool tattoo. And this is Passion Pit:
Oh yeah you’re the best damn friend that I’ll ever have You’ll always smile upon me when the seasons bad You’ll always make me feel best even when I’m blue You’ll always smile upon me and I’ll smile upon you too I don’t know what are you now Since everything has changed If I did know...
"Take your time, don't live too fast. Troubles...
Today after the video project viewing sesh at D’s (See ours here — http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_kO73cP8GM), baby and I went to the Movies. Drag Me to Hell was very, very stupid. How do films like those make it to the big screen? And Up was heartfelt, beautiful, and sad enough to make me cry a river. I got the metaphorical meaning of when he was throwing out all of his things in...
May 2009
19 posts
I love thinking that tomorrow is Monday for the entirety of today and then realizing at the end that it is Sunday tomorrow! Four days left. This is totally unreal. It’s like I’m having an out-of-body experience.
And today while I was editing I accidently opened up an old video. I have forgotten how much fun we used to have together and it stung for a bit. And then I snapped out of it...
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson (via littlemiss)
Upside down jellyfish are compelling! Today’s trip to the Academy of Sciences was quite interesting. I have put together my Senior thesis in less than 2 hours and am watching the exciting National Spelling Bee! These kids are so quirky.
Love save the empty, and save me.
Of course I’m in a good mood, there are only five days left! Of course I’m in a good mood, I’m going to San Francisco tomorrow as opposed to being pent up in a classroom! Of course I’m in a good mood, I’ve been inspired! I can’t believe the intelligence and persistence of some people. I can only hope to be half the student they are someday. Gates Millenium,...
That’s funny. I thought people Grow Up in college.
I cannot believe that next week will be our last. Actually … I can believe it. I’ve been counting down the days! It’s trickled down to single digits. The summer is looking immaculately wonderful, aside from the fact the FHQ might let us go. I’ve got my fingers crossed though. I don’t know how I’d be...
It’s pretty hard to stay focused when the weather is so nice. Attempted filming for our project today but there just isn’t a drive anymore. Went to Ramblewood and tried to capture happiness naturally. Ran into Brindon/Brandon’s little brothers! Double set of twins, how lucky is that. Stopped by Diego’s for awhile and then went to Valley Fair with my mom and sister. Baby...
“In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different.” Coco Chanel
An afterthought to my previous rant about annoying proclamations. Up until this point, I’ve yet to meet anyone irreplaceable, excluding my immediate family. It’s 30 til 3 AM and I am still wide awake. I am rather thirsty but am feeling like quite the sloth. The more I think about Davis, the more it is...
Half of the ring lies here with me But the other half’s at the bottom of the sea
Oh my gosh, I so want to go to the Ballooning Festival in SoCal June 5-7! Then I can check off one thing from my Things To Do Before I Die list. Which I have to make first.
I had the most fun spring cleaning experience ever today. Woke up and bummed around for 3 hours or so. Cutie picked me up and we went to Marc’s house. Rode the Moped and the Go-Cart or whatever that thing was around! We...
Today was moderately fun! I think Carmel-by-the-Sea’s beauty is astounding. Chatted up everyone, tried to learn wake-boarding (or what ever that board was!), rolled down a sandy hill and scraped myself up, flew our kite pt ii, played catch, eat delicious chicken and sandy chips, ran into the freeze-your-toes-off water, buried myself, went jogging with baby and pretty much, had fun. My only...
I hate these cliche proclamations: 1) “I’m not like the rest.” / “I’m different.” 2) “Nobody understands.” / “You don’t know how I feel.” 3) “My friends are better than yours.” / “My friends are the best.” Okay, first of all .. when you say “I’m different” you’re really just repeating...
i’m looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find
“The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more...
People choose ignorance. People definitely choose ignorance. It’s funny that after my revelation, crystal clear evidence backing my statement surfaces.
Lately there’s just been particles, fragments of thoughts floating around in my mind. This is totally unreal. Eight schooldays. (Yes, it jumped from ten to eight schooldays because today ASB planned a Field Trip on June 1.) And I’m leaving this town behind me with … not much. I read something the other day by Ernest Hemingway that I would like to quote: “Happiness in...
There are ten legitimate schooldays left in my high school career. The countdown begins on my fingertips. It seems as if the end is near, doesn’t it? Today was the POPS concert and everyone started crying, and it feels like I’ve missed the point or something. Should I be sad? But really, I don’t feel like I’m leaving much behind. Maybe a few months back in my naïvete nature...
Again with the bittersweet moments. Everytime I go to the beach from now on, I will be thinking about what I’ll be missing out on in Davis, CA. But I’ve come a little way from moping. I realize that Davis is not a pictorial setting at first, but I know it’s more than a cow town and I know I can make the best of every situation. Besides, it’s a lovely place with charming,...
April 2009
9 posts
“Graduation is just around the corner, and we are all anticipating to cross that...”
– Angel Do
In the past week, many things have happened that only reinforce the fact that a guy like you comes along once in a full moon. Speaking with an old friend made me realize how immature some of these guys are. They won’t even call you back. And do you know how hard it is to find a good, clean guy nowadays? One that doesn’t trash himself every weekend and puts his brain cells to use...
I love, love love waking up slow. I love it. :) Today was the easiest day ever.
I live for the longest goodbyes. Today I let my thoughts wander while we kissed and I started thinking about the future and your absence and it inspired tears. So I just put my arms around you and salvaged the moment. You mean everything to me.
Dear Romeo,
I just posted an incredibly lengthy love letter for you somewhere but I still am quite timid to show it to you. You’ll see it one day, when you’re on your best behavior and when I feel like it.
Goodnight, love!
- Juliet
Can anyone say “creeper”?
High school is kind of a freakshow.
The Hardest Decision
I don’t think I’ve ever changed my mind this many times. I made the pros and cons list like you told me to. The column with the most pros had a single con that overruled all. 400 miles.
I thought about it a lot.
I thought about it a lot more.
And in the end, I choose Davis. And it will put us to the test. I guess if it doesn’t work out, it wasn’t meant to be. And if it...
Feeling a little under the weather ...
The feeling I get from coming home from a long trip is unique and bittersweet. When I see my bed, the comfort of home rushes into every bone in my body. And yet, getting back to reality, seeing these yellow walls that seem to be closing in on me more and more, .. it spoils my ardent happiness just a little.
Anyway, daddy renovated the bathroom while we were gone.
Anyway, SoCal was alright.
...
Darling,
I love you.
You remember that thing YOU wanted to just “let pass”? I never bring it up. So I’d appreciate it if you just let this pass.
March 2009
16 posts
You are a beautiful creation
“Driftin cause you distract me truly you make me happy wonder if what we have is what you call special.”
Because,
princesses are not used to coming in second, and they will never tolerate coming in second.